Healing Rain

Sometimes I dwell on things I don't have. I get sad, upset, jealous, and sometimes angry. Then I stop for a second and look around. I live in a beautiful home in one of the nicest areas of Edmonton. I have couches, a big-screen, a GIANT closet (that's far from empty), I have a car with command start - for those cold winter days, I have about 35 pairs of shoes. These are just material things, I also have amazing friends. The Hilsden family who've become my family away from home. The Nichols, who are my bosses - yet the ones i call when sandwiched between two cars on the whitemud, I have Roma who's an awesome support, huge encouragement, and an person. I have Dion who will call me on anything and love me through it all. I have Amy who I could do just about anything in front of. These are all people i've known less than a year. I also have my family and friends back in manitoba who love me.

How blessed am I! Seriously, I have everything i need, physically, emotionally, financially. God's truly blessed me and he's given me so much more than I deserve.

I have a friend with only half a heart, but if you'd ask me I'd say she has the biggest heart of all. I have not hear her once complain about her situation. She keeps her eyes on the prize, is joyful, encouraging, loving, and sincere. She loves jesus with every bit of that tiny heart of hers. She's the most inspirational person i've met. I just love her, and so look forward to that awesome day, when the doctors look at the scar on her chest and can't figure out how there's a full heart in there!

Then I have this cousin. She's 2 weeks older than me. Growing up we were bff's. She'd come over for christmas. We'd easy bake together. We'd make creepy-crawlies together. We'd go camping together. She wants a family more than anything else and was devestated when she was told that would never happen. To our delight less than a month after this news she became pregnant! How exciting! I was so thrilled for her. Then the news came. The baby has an extremely rare disease. She can carry him to term, but he will only live a very short time after birth. The obvious solution in the doctors mind was inducing labour. A candied over version of kill your baby now instead of carry him to term. To my delight she's carry him to term, and that baby will live for however long God wants him to. Jay is sending her son to be with Jesus on his terms!

So this puts some perspective on my life. I really have nothing to complain about and everything to be thankful for. I'm thankful for a cousin who has such amazing values, morals, and beliefs, that she will keep this baby as long as she can. I'm thankful for a friend who can find joy in a life that's been so unfair to her. I'm thankful for a Saviour who came to earth and died the worst imaginable death just for me. If it was only me... he still would have done this! Hallellujah!

I believe our god is the same god who spat in mud, rubbed it on a mans eyes and healed him of blindness. I believe my god can and will touch my loved ones. I believe healing will happen!